Tuesday, December 29, 2009

doesn't even matter

in context, you were my everything. but as time passes, and as I think of the future and my whole life pans out infront of me, more and more things are unimportant. I'm set. no more distractions.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

ugly duckling

she knows what she's doing. and that's what scares me.

She's got green eyes
And she's 5'5,
Long brown hair all down her back.
Cadillac truck.
So the hell what?
What's so special about that?
She used to model,
She's done some acting.
So she weighs a buck, o'five.
And I guess that she's alright
If perfection's what you like.

livin' on dreams and spaghettios

I can't tell whether it's falling apart or coming together. either way, it's really messy. and I'm far too broken to even mind.

Friday, December 25, 2009

december twenty fifth


to all and to all a goodnight.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009


I was anticipating it since summer, but with two days to go, I don't feel a thing. it's probably because I'm so numb from some negative 23092834029348230948234 degrees outside.

I should really do something productive. instead, I've been sitting at home, watching my favourite tv series from my laptop in the privacy of my very own room. I did a bit of homework today. EXCITING.

After receiving some news that should have devastated me, I'm not devastated. I don't know whether to be happy or sad. eh, I'll figure it out... right after I'm done doing my homework.

Friday, December 18, 2009

the doppler effect

wicked nerd show. I love it.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

500 days of summer

it was a cute movie. the ending was alright. now I'm left here, and the more I think about it, the more I don't believe in love.

I'm the last person you want to be talking to right now. I'll just rant for a tad:

I actually hate when people try to be "that one person that I can confide in", because for fucks sake, it's up to me if I want to talk to you about something, and the chances of me doing so are slim to none. I choose my friends and if you're not one of them, it's with good reason.

I actually hate when people complain to me about all the work that they have to do at school. Seriously, I have the same amount of work as you, so shut the fuck up. No, I don't feel sorry for you if there are things going on in your life that prevent you from doing your work. Just because I do my work, doesn't mean that I don't have my own life. I'm just better at prioritizing than you.

I actually hate when people ask to see what I'm doing or ask me for ideas. Think of your own for fucks sake. if I help you now, you'll never make it in the "real world".

I actually hate when people are superficial and get "everything" they want, thinking it'll satisfy them. it won't. good God, it won't.

planet earth

If common sense were actually that common, the world would be a better place. Because isn't it common sense that we shall not intentionally hurt another? Isn't it common sense that we shall not harm our own bodies with things such as alcohol and other various drugs? Isn't it common sense that just as seasons change, maybe people can't; therefore, isn't it common sense that she or he does not deserve a second chance? Isn't it common sense that you're with the wrong girl? Isn't it common sense that she could do better? Isn't it common sense that nobody should be subjected to living in poverty, on the corner of here and there. Isn't it common sense that humiliation is self imposed? Isn't it common sense that good things come to those who wait because patience makes things seem to come to us more quickly? Isn't it common sense that we all want what we can't have because we don't feel want for something that we do have, seeing as we already have it? Isn't it common sense that our other sock is in the last place that we'd look because honestly, who is going to keep looking for something in a different place after they've found it?

Isn't it common sense that if we recognized common sense, the world would be a better place? But according to my common sense, if everyone had common sense, everyone would be common. But maybe I like the world the way it is.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

the hills

sometimes when you walk away, there's a little part of you that wishes that he'd come running after you.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

remember me

I've been having dreams lately. It's nice. Normally, I just shut my eyes and get put into a sheet of blackness for a long time, then I wake up. Now there are actual scenarios in my head. It's like going to the movies, but better, and ten million times more creative.

Thursday, December 03, 2009

and i stand so tall


Julia is visiting from Chicago

from Friday to Monday.

Also, it is going to


on Monday.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

wtf, srsly

I still feel distant from everyone I know. I don't even have a "first call". Do you know how bad it feels to have amazing news, or terrible news, and have nobody to tell? It's as if I don't even need to exist anymore. The world still turns without me.

Winter depression is hitting hard.

he says, she says

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